Saturday, September 23, 2006
6:18 PM
인사 - Boa
credit: aheeyah.com
어느새 니 맘이
저 멀리 있다면
아무런 말도 없길 바래
어떤 표정도 없이
아무렇지도 않은 듯
그렇게 너를 밀어내고 싶어
꿈을 꾼 것 같은 현실 같은 느낌..
눈을 떠봐도 찾으려 해도
넌 내 안에 어디에도 없는 걸
Oh I Love You
내 안에 남길 수 있는
단 하나의 얘기는, 내 마지막 고백은..
안녕..
사랑이 아니길.. 너만이 아니길..
내 가슴에 내 기억 속에..
너만이 내 일생에 유일하지는 않기를
언제나 내가 기도하게 해줘
내 안에 없어도 볼 수가 없어도
날 사랑했던, 그 날들처럼
넌 내 맘을 움직이고 있는 걸
Oh I Love You
내 안에 남길 수 있는
단 하나의 얘기는, 내 마지막 고백은..
혹시나 내가 니 앞에서 눈물 흘리더라도
나를 떠나가지 말아달라고 애원하더라도
내 사랑은 그 이상일 수 없을 거라고
난 말하고 싶지만.. 너무나 멀어진 넌
사랑이 아니길.. 너만이 아니길..
내 마음속에 기억 속에..
난 너만이 유일하지 않길 바래
I Love You 내 마음속에 가득 찬
단 하나의 얘기는, 내 마지막 고백은.. 안녕
Good-Bye - Boa
translation by: eebyul (credit: aheeyah.com)
At somepoint if your heart is way over there
I hope I wont say anything
I hope I will be expressionless
I want to push you out as if nothing is the matter
The reality that feels like a dream..
Even when I open my eyes, even when I try to find you
You are no where inside of me
Oh I love you
The only thing that is able to be left in me,
My last confession is..
Goodbye..
I hope its not love, I hope its not you
In my heart, in my memory,
I hope you are not the only one in my life
You always make me pray for you
Even if you arent in me, even if I cant see you
Just like those days when you used to love me,
You are still moving my heart
Oh I love you
The only thing that is able to be left in me,
My last confession is..
Even when I shed tears in front of you
Even when I beg you not to leave me
My love cant be more than that
I want to tell you but... you've already gone too far
I hope its not love, I hope its not you
In my heart, in my memory,
I hope you are not the only one in my life
I love you
The only thing that is filled within me,
My last confession is..
Goodbye...
Thursday, September 14, 2006
1:19 PM
Classes have already started and already i can tell that i am stressed beyond belief. This year i know is going to be a tough one. It's already the second week of class and i'm still not quite used to everything yet. Well the only thing that i can say is that midterms are pretty much right after next week. Which means that i have to hurry and get myself into shape. But so much to do and i don't even know where to start. Before when classes haven't even started yet and i'm just looking at my schedule, i'm thinking that my breaks are too long and that i have too much spare time, but what i didn't factor in is the unexpected things that come in and also the travel time from home to school and back. So that takes up a lot of time.
I really have to learn to believe in myself that i can pull through. I need to know that i can do it and not break down i guess. Ha haa the funny thing is that my family think i'm doing fine because i go home with a big smile and still laugh and act like a crazy daughter and sister, lol :P *sigh....but i chose this path. I chose to go to U and go through with this kind of an education. I could have chosen to just graduate and then find a job, but i didn't. Because i chose this path, i must now see it to the end. For once in my life i want to see something to the end and this is it. So what that means is that i gotta work hard and not be lazy lol. Summer is over and now i need to hit the books and start reading and studying and so on and so forth.
You know watching my little sister do her stuff makes me want to go back to Jr High. lol, those were the fun days where everything was so simple and fun. But this is fun too i guess in a way..well..okay in a twisted way but yeah. Anyways enough of me going on and on, so today i'm feeling overwhelmed and feeling like i'm going to fail everything...it's my mood i can't help it. maybe when i get home i'll try to relax though i highly doubt it. yeah, have class now so i better get walking.
Have fun in your classes guys and don't be too stressed :P
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
5:14 PM
In just a couple of days so much has happened. Most of it has to do with my personal life and my family. I don't really feel comfortable talking to people outright about what is wrong. I know that some people are and they turn to me to have someone to talk to. I don't mind :) But when you guys tell me that whenever i need someone to turn to i can go to you guys...i'm sorry....i'm not really that kind of a person. Ever since i was a little child, everytime something was bothering me i always shut myself out to the world. Noone not even my parents could get through to me. But on occasion i remember my dad being able to comfort me :) Yeah Daddy's girl (or so i would like to think). Today's blog really isn't going to be much really. I think i just needed somewhere to blab i guess. Right now i don't really know how i should feel. I want to cry and yet i can't. I'm afraid but i don't know what to do with the fear. I want someone to tell me that everything will be okay but it won't. It'll only be okay if a miracle happened now. I don't even know how what is happening is going to effect my life right now. Will it interfere with my school work or will i end up one day just breaking down because i've tried to be strong for so long? But i need to be strong. I need to be strong for my family....so that i can be of some help and support. Should be more like my sister i guess where she doesn't even seem to feel anything. Or maybe that's just her outside appearance. But to be honest....i think that my sister is stronger than me emotionally in so many ways (except for the time when our hamster left....then i think she cried out of anger really than sadness but she really loved that hamster....me too i guess...)
If i'm asked by some of you guys what today's blog was about i don't know if you'll get an answer. But i'll be okay. Really you guys :) At the momment while walking around for a bit and thinking...i just really wanted to do something. I can't make time stop....there are some things that are out of my hands and the only thing that i can do is pray and i'll try real hard not to cry. I have to learn to not cry at every little thing...ha haa or i'll end up like that girl in "princess hours".
I guess to bring this post to an end before i ramble on for more than a page because i don't know what else to do, i'll leave with a message: Enjoy your life while you have the chance to. Tell the people that are closest to you and that matter to you the most how much you cherish them. You never know when there will never be a tomorrow. (great now i really want to cry....but no...okay....i better go now, so yeah :) i'll be okay. Sorry everyone for this post....i just needed something and this was what came up seeing as how i was already on the computer.
Monday, September 04, 2006
1:17 PM
Wow...unbelievable....the mass amount of dramas that my mom bought me. So where to start? i'm not quite sure lol too much to watch and the feeling of not wanting to watch them because you cherish them so much (so sad ha haa).
Dramas are fun to watch but also a danger. Danger you ask? Yup. Dangerous because if you're not careful you might end up believing in them too much. A friend and i were talking about this one day during tennis and we both agreed that it's so easy to be pulled into the world of dramas. I've seen some of my friends get really sucked into them and so absorbed that it's like they are obsessed. Totally obsessed that everything is a drama this and a drama that. Seeing that sometimes scares me and makes me stay away from the DVD machine lol.
Dramas are great because there's always a ending that is happy...well...in most and a lot of cases anyways. Things always work out if there is a problem. Whereas in real life...not always is there a happy ending. And not always is there a good solution to a problem. I guess to me i get stuck on Dramas because that world seems so much more cooler than the one that i live in. Everything is right. But if i were to think about it....my life is pretty good too. Though it's not as perfect as a Drama.
My friend once wrote to me: maybe life can be like a manga. Maybe it can be who knows. Dramas are great because the characters are always perfect and the story is always something that appeals to you (or else why would you watch it?). But sometimes...there has to be some control. i don't want to be one of those people that all day long all that they can talk about is drama this and drama that. I want to be a person that can watch a drama and love the drama but not become obsessed with it. Control i guess is what it is called.
I'm thankful that i have a mom that understands that i love dramas and lets me watch them. But i am also thankful that she is a mom that helps me have control of the mass amount of dramas that i watch :P
I guess really....dramas are like an alternate reality where everything eventually works itself out to an outcome that you want. But...life isn't like that i guess....i don't really know....i'm kinda tired lol as you can tell with me rambling about nonsense stuff today. Control is what we all need when it comes to this stuff. So watch dramas but don't become obsessed and sucked into that world okay?
