Tuesday, February 28, 2006
11:10 PM
Practice makes perfect. But does that only apply to sports or to all things in life also. I have been wondering a lot lately about why it is that no matter what i do, i can't seem to measure up to what it is that i am supposed to be. Everyone always tells me that all you have to do is to be yourself and that is all that matters. But a lot of times, i feel that if only i could be more of this or more of that then i can make my parents proud of me or make someone more happier. I know that there is no such thing as perfection, but i can't help feeling as if maybe i haven't tried hard enough.
Lately, many things have happened to make me wish that i was the perfect daughter that my parents could be proud of. A family isn't a family if it's broken is it? A family consists of a mom, a dad and children. A family should be happy, and never mad at one another. Someone once told me that FAMILY stood for father and mother i love you. When i heard that i thought that it was cute. I don't ever recall telling my parents how much they have meant to me. As the years are going by and i'm trying to figure things out for myself, their constant support has meant so much to me. Sometimes, i feel like as if there is so much more that i could do to make them happy and proud. But it's hard. And yet, i know that i can't give up. My parents have done so much for me ever since the day that i was born. They were the only people that no matter what i did or what happened to me, i could always go to them. They've sacrificed so much so that i could have a better future than what they had. So now....i must try my best to be the perfect daughter for them. I can't give up. They deserve to have a daughter that they can be proud of. I need to try and try and try. No matter what.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
4:25 PM
Why snow angel? Well...it's because of a story book that i read not long ago. This story book was a chinese story called "Snow Angel". And on top of that i didn't even know that it was made into a taiwanese drama. So how cool is that? Basically once i read the first volume of the series, i fell in love with the story.
只要見到雪天使
你心裏最深最深的願望就能實現
只要能找到雪天使
就有希望和勇氣，就算是再痛再難再渺茫的愛情
也能克服
因為只要是彼此真心付出的愛情，便是天長地久
So according to this, all i have to do is find the snow angel and i will find eternal happiness and have hope and courage.
So many of my friends are all going through a tough time and i can do nothing but listen and just be there. Then while sitting at home one day i all of a sudden remembered the story about the snow angel. so to all of my friends, i hope with all of my heart that each and every one of you guys will be able to find your snow angel.
You know, i've only ever read the first volume of this series and haven't even seen the drama yet. But i'm still not giving up in the fact that one day i will be able to find the drama and finish reading the series. actaully...i want to own them both. ha haa. I really really do love this series, and top of that, TORO from ENERGY and the guy from MVP valentine are in that drama. oh no...this is getting me back into my drama craziness again. but then again, it's always been there, it's just at the back of my mind right now due to other things that are occupying my attention.
Right now, i only really worry about the people that are closest to me. i feel helpless as if there is nothing that i can do to make everything alright again. and this always happens to me, ha haa. i have to learn to stop worrying about others and worry about my own health (which at the momment has been very bad since the beginning of last week :P) but i think that i'll be alright. no need to see a doctor (i think....)so...i shall try my best to worry very very little about people. so...if it seems as if i am uncaring, it only means that i'm creating distance. Distance i think is the best medicine for me. So to conclude, i shall try distance for a change.
